New
I have new blog. haven’t really been doing much on it but if anyones interested go follow :)
westchesternights.tumblr.com
Birthday Boy
So it’s 5:10 in the morning.
It’s supposed to be my birthday but definitely doesn’t feel like it.
I don’t want to sleep because I know I will sleep in and I will feel like I missed my whole birthday.
Thankfully my managers gave me the day off as a “birthday present?”
Yeah right… they just needed to cut hours…
I’ll be really honest in this post. It’s been a while since I’ve opened up.
Even in my prayers.
I feel like I’m holding back. I feel like a stone. I haven’t been able to cry or feel.
I’m not saying I’m doing bad. I mean, if someone were to ask me “Are you okay?” I would say that I’m doing great.
What I’m trying to say is, I feel like I’ve been bottling up everything. Both good and bad. And I’m ready to open up, wether it’s in prayer, or songwriting, or even a conversation with someone.
This will be my last post on this tumblr. I will make a new one. I’ll probably share it or just keep it secret and leave it up to you guys to find me. Maybe I’ll steal the name of this one. Or maybe even start that “leadership/music” blog I was talking about. Who knows?
Love everyone who actually read my posts and cared. You guys are awesome.
Music Theory
I miss my music theory class.
I miss jamming with all my classmates before class started.
I miss studying with them before a test
I miss practicing rhythm and “Counting and Clapping”
I miss the girl with the good voice
I miss the dude who was way better than me.
I miss the crazy strict teacher.
Music theory is fun. At least that class made it fun.
I want to go back to school.
I just love music, and art. I wish I could do what I loved for the rest of my life without having to worry about money or whether or not im going to have food on the table.
So close.
una-su-un-milione asked: Just read your post 'single girls' and though I'd tell you that I agree with you; interesting post. Have a nice week stranger & be safe! Mariela~
Thank you. I wrote that post a while ago and it’s nice to know people are still reading it lol. Have an awesome week too.
I want to make a lot of changes to this blog. Or I may not conitune to use it. Looking back at it and at some posts, I feel like I’m not that same person. And that their can be another use for blogs. Hmm… Don’t worry, I still love guitars and gear. I still love hardcore/alternative/metal/post-hardcore/progressive (etc.) bands!! I still love some soccer and random high quality videos. Who knows I may end up with differnt blogs.
But I don’t want to continue using this the same way I do now. Some of you might be “chill out dude, it’s just tumblr.” but I’m thinking of using it for another purpose. To write about leadership. To write about worship or worshipleading. To edify believers and the body of christ. But then again I don’t want one of those blogs with a picture or beautiful scenery and some typography on it about a verse in the bible (I have nothing against that! lol)…
Whatever, hopefully you guy will get it. I’ll see what I do.
Untill next time!! :D
God’s love
“It’s stronger than duct tape
It’s thicker than glue
This crazy love will never fail you.”
Lol something I wrote a long time ago. I like it though.
Drifting.
I must be pretty good at hiding things. There are so many things I want to write about. But I just can’t… I just want to be away from people for a good while. Maybe a week? It’s not because of the people but because of me. I’ve been doing the things I’m against. Everything I said I would do I haven’t done and everything I said wouldn’t I already have… It took a whole lot of time but I finally had the time to step back and look at what I was being wrapped up in. It’s time I set an anchor.
(Source: metrodorus, via americann0mad)
